Womanhood

Yeah... why is that?

2012-01-17T17:19:00.001+02:00

Akash: I have no interest in you. zilch. get that straight.

Kiara: I don't know if I should feel relieved or then begin to wonder why you are not interested in me. Not that I want you to be interested.

Forgive me

2012-01-16T18:04:00.001+02:00

Forgive me, for I am faltering.
I believe, I have faith,
But the road is sometimes too hard for a simple human to bear.

Amor não se conjuga no passado...

2012-01-11T18:18:00.002+02:00

Amor não se conjuga no passado... | Fernando Pessoa | Amor | Dejovu.com

Não sei como nunca me passou esta pela frente... faz-me ver o meu passado de forma tão diferente, ainda que saiba que mesmo sabendo o que descobri hoje, não mudaria o caminho e seguiria em frente até onde estou. Mas olho para trás e sorrio. E só por isso vale sempre a pena :)

Sem

2012-01-01T16:20:00.001+02:00

Sem vergonha
Sem medo
Sem máscaras
Sem sentido

Sempre genuína

This is me

2012-01-01T16:18:00.002+02:00

This is all of me
I can be no more
I can be no less
A cannot be but this

I am not asking you to like it
But I have been told it is difficult not to

So welcome
Feel at home
Leave if you must
You be a fool if you do :)

Open for auditions (let the new year come)

2011-12-31T21:27:00.001+02:00

My profile is such (in Swedish, just because I can):

Den sociala

Du är en väldigt öppen och social person. För dig är en relation viktig och du delar gärna vardagen med någon. Du vill ha en partner som prioriterar vänner och aktiviteter. Ett rikt liv för dig är när du och din partner är tillsammans, men du lägger stort värde i att ni även umgås mycket med andra.

Alternatively: comes the dawn...

2011-11-02T09:52:00.000+02:00

After A While

Author: Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while
you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't always promises

and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and and your eyes ahead
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers

And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every good-bye you learn.

Paradise on earth

2011-06-23T13:44:00.003+02:00

I hear your voice and this is where I travel... I dream of paradise on earth. I dream of fantasies lived and not forgotten. I dream constantly of you.

Room pool - Vie Hotel Bangkok

The man I love

2011-04-19T13:52:00.000+02:00

Ell Fitzgerald - The man I love

Just because...

2010-12-16T16:09:00.001+02:00

Just because I love you and you love me does not mean we are meant to be.
But there will be a special spot for you within me :)

À água pertenco... desde sempre ao mediterrâneo

2010-11-01T22:37:00.001+02:00

Javier Limón - Agua Misteriosa (Mujeres de Agua)

What do you do

2010-09-28T15:00:00.002+02:00

What do you do when you know?
You trust and wait
Because it is not in your hands

What do you do when you fear
You still trust and wait
The outcome is always better for you

Peace making

2010-09-17T09:47:00.000+02:00

Feels good!

Ready for love

2010-09-09T10:18:00.003+02:00

It is a wonderful realization

I'm ready to accept that there are consequences to my actions
Whether intended or not
I've finally accepted that aiding and abiding is also part of the crime
I'm no longer afraid and do not want to settle for less
I trust that the future always holds something better
Even if it's not what I want or not the way I pictured it to be
This is especially true if what I have is less than what I hoped for or think I deserve

I'm ready
I'm hopeful
I'm faithful
I'm thankful

I've made it!

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Resoluções

2010-09-07T13:14:00.002+02:00

Deitar o lixo fora
Concentrar-me no essencial
Investir e empenhar-me no que me importa e para onde quero ir
Reinventar-me permanecendo eu mesma

AMAR-ME!

Clarity

2010-08-30T10:48:00.002+02:00

Clarity is such a wonderful thing
I am so clearly confused
But sure I am not ready to let go

I am so clearly aware of your distance
And stubbornly in denial of what it may mean

I am so clearly in turbulence
And yet find myself in this amazing inner calm

Clearly I don't know what is going on

All is left for me is to contemplate.
I guess this is what they mean by higher awareness
When the high tides come you let them pass
Either they will drown you
Or you will survive
Either way there is nothing much you can do about them
So let it be!

To think I thought I had a say in anything.
Clearly I was in the dark about everything

No país do deveria ser

2010-08-26T13:42:00.002+02:00

Ando perdida, sem passaporte
Toda minha me guiei pelo que deve ser
Pensando ser o meu querer
Agora sei que ando muito pelo que não deve ser
Nem sei qual é o meu querer
E não entendo porque não me incomoda

Não é uma questão moral
É simplesmente ignorância total
Aprendi como devo sentir
Por isso não sei o que fazer
Quando não sinto o que deveria estar a sentir

Acho que quero mudar de nacionalidade
Mas não sei como me comportar neste novo país
Estou ainda moldada pelos valores do meu país de origem
E não sei se me vou habituar
Ou se é um entusiasmo momentâneo

E nunca a ignorância me fez tão pouco mal!

How to improve your life quality

2010-08-26T13:32:00.002+02:00

A long time ago, a girl named Li-Li got married and went to live with her husband and mother-in-law.In a very short time, Li-Li found that she couldn't get along with her mother-in-law at all.

Their personalities were very different, and Li-Li was angered by many of her mother-in-law's habits. In addition, she criticized Li-Li constantly.

Days passed days, and weeks passed weeks. Li-Li and her mother-in-law never stopped arguing and fighting. But what made the situation even worse was that, according to ancient Chinese tradition, Li-Li had to bow to her mother-in-law and obey her every wish.

All the anger and unhappiness in the house was causing the poor husband great distress.

Finally, Li-Li could not stand her mother-in-law's bad temper and dictatorship any longer, and she decided to do something about it.

Li-Li went to see her father's good friend, Mr. Huang, who sold herbs. She told him the situation and asked if he would give her some poison so that she could solve the problem once and for all. Mr. Huang thought for a while, and finally said, Li-Li, I will help you solve your problem, but you must listen to me and obey what I tell you. Li-Li said, "Yes, Mr. Huang, I will do whatever you tell me to do."

Mr.Huang went into the back room, and returned in a few minutes with a package of herbs.

He told Li-Li, "You can't use a quick-acting poison to get rid of your mother-in-law, because that would cause people to become suspicious. Therefore, I have given you a number of herbs that will slowly build up poison in her body.
Every other day prepare some delicious meal and put a little of these herbs in her serving. Now, in order to make sure that nobody suspects you when she dies, you must be very careful to act very friendly towards her. Don't argue with her, obey her every wish, and treat her like a queen."

Li-Li was so happy. She thanked Mr. Huang and hurried home to start her plot of murdering her mother-in-law.

Weeks went by, and months went by, and every other day, Li-Li served the specially treated food to her mother-in-law. She remembered what Mr.Huang had said about avoiding suspicion, so she controlled her temper,obeyed her mother-in-law, and treated her like her own mother. After six months had passed, the whole household had changed.

Li-Li had practiced controlling her temper so much that she found that she almost never got mad or upset. She hadn't had an argument in six months with her mother-in-law, who now seemed much kinder and easier to get along with.

The mother-in-law's attitude toward Li-Li changed, and she began to love Li-Li like her own daughter. She kept telling friends and relatives that Li-Li was the best daughter-in-law one could ever find. Li-Li and her mother-in-law were now treating each other like a real mother and daughter.

Li-Li's husband was very happy to see what was happening.

One day, Li-Li came to see Mr. Huang and asked for his help again. She said, "Dear Mr. Huang, please help me to keep the poison from killing my mother-in-law! She's changed into such a nice woman, and I love her like my own mother. I do not want her to die because of the poison I gave her."

Mr. Huang smiled and nodded his head. "Li-Li, there's nothing to worry about. I never gave you any poison. The herbs I gave you were vitamins to improve her health. The only poison was in your mind and your attitude toward her, but that has been all washed away by the love which you gave to her."

Enough

2010-08-10T10:08:00.002+02:00

Enough self-recrimination already,

If I cannot be the woman I am supposed to be, with all the knowledge I have acquired so far, so just let me be the woman I can be.

If I am weak, just let me be.
If I am allowing too much, so let me.
I am not suffering for it.
I get annoyed, I get irritated, but all passes eventually. And in the end all is left is the inability to resist.

So, if I am unable to resist, why should I fight myself?
I should choose not to.

Worst part is, all this recrimination comes from none other than me. And it makes no sense, because if it is not bringing me down, if I am taller than ever, loved like never, why should I care about how it should be instead of being concerned with how it ACTUALLY makes me feel.

Be HAPPY woman... You are finally whole! It is not textbook? You never liked those anyhow. Happiness is what you choose and not what others say how it should like. Your journey is only yours to walk. And you are allowed the company it pleases you.

And life goes on

2010-08-06T08:42:00.000+02:00

Aura Dione - I will love you Monday

Não passa nada

2010-08-05T19:46:00.000+02:00

Não disse?!
Tão previsível que quase enjoa
Mas a carne é fraca
E a televisão ainda não está ligada.

Melhor como?!

2010-08-04T13:39:00.001+02:00

Melhor só que não acompanhada.
Que na realidade não muda nada.

Mas isto só me dá nestes momentos vazios
Que amanhã já não passa nada.

Soulmates

2010-08-02T09:05:00.003+02:00

Soulmates - Chris Rock (Never Scared)

Just like that (2)

2010-07-27T09:51:00.000+02:00

Just like that my heart is filled with love and affection.
For no reason
Without a cause
Just because

Is it a lie?

2010-07-26T18:04:00.003+02:00

It is far easier to believe that there is a lie lying in here somewhere, then to trust that the one truly exists. If faced with perfection in such imperfect state, what do you do? When you finally understand that the one is not the other for you, but the other in you, what do you do?

WHAT THE F*** DO YOU DO WHEN NOTHING MAKES SENSE ANYMORE?!

Ok... back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place, back to my zen place...

Sitting still

2010-07-26T14:12:00.002+02:00

The hardest is to seat still,
Not moving and letting the world come to me
After years of frantic arm-waving, the stillness feels good but is strange to get used to.

It is no longer about the right thing to do
It is no longer about pride and what I deserve
It is no longer about anything I have experienced or am familiar with

It is a new road,
A fine and pleasant new road.

Life can be wonderful as that.

Made for two

2010-07-24T20:39:00.002+02:00

I have been made for two
To be with another
To treat another
To hold another
To breath another

And as I am one
I still do not feel alone
But only because I feel
The presence of another
The hug of another
The breath of another

What to do?! (2)

2010-07-06T12:27:00.001+02:00

Scream out loud or just seat back and stare at the void?

I have the feeling, but I can't get passed this numbness. Maturity cannot be this insensitive, can it? It should not make us feel indifferent. It would be a tragedy. I live for my emotions!

I guess

2010-06-21T11:02:00.001+02:00

I guess what you do is you derail, you detour, you get stuck, you just don't move on.

And you're still happy? Until the next tear, right?

Stupid girl!

Crossroads

2010-06-14T22:13:00.002+02:00

Time is upon us.
I know what I should do.
I can't seem to be able to.
Such a long way between knowing and acting.

I wonder if it is cowardice, fear or just plain bonelessness.

Is it so idiotic to think the spark is still there?
Idiotic to ignore danger signs impossible to miss?
Just plain idiotic?

Frankly

2010-05-31T17:52:00.003+02:00

My dear, you don't give a damn
So when the time comes
And it will come,
Why should I?

As it should be

2010-05-30T18:30:00.002+02:00

I want more
I deserve more
Not what you think you can give
But what you know I deserve
If you cannot or will not
I do not care
I only care that you are not giving it to me
So, come and go as you will
You still not getting what you want
Not until I get what I want

Isn't this the way things should be?

Butter me up

2010-05-24T11:20:00.002+02:00

There you are
Flying around me
Afraid to land
When you know you want to

Isn't it a bummer
When your own rules turn against you?
When the stillness of my body is still not enough
And when you thought I would have waved you away long time ago

And yet
Here you are still
Still flying around me

I cannot touch
You have to land
And you know you want to

Be a man
Stop trying to butter me up
Else fly for good!

All it takes

2010-05-24T08:55:00.000+02:00

Some ice cream
Some like minded girlfriends
Good and bad memories
A lot of sex talk
And you're ready to walk

Ah...

Specially common

2010-05-22T11:34:00.003+02:00

Special moments with common people are still special.
Everything is as special as we want it to be
And as beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
So is wonder in the mind of the believer.

Just live it, enjoy it, cherish it
There will never be a feeling like it again
Special, yes, equal, never

Should I thank now or save it for later?

The most special, though,
Through all the lies and deceiving
Still no grudge or resentment.
That has to be an achievement.

Either I'm still in denial
Or you are truly one of the most special common people I've come across with.

Just like that

2010-05-21T17:26:00.003+02:00

And just like that, with a doubt, the answer has come.
If there is a God, It does not like to see me suffer.
And as I always say, I am God's favorite child.

What would you know, the Guru was right:
He did not really love me
He loved my body and money

I guess there are different ways of naming things like:
sex and status

Oh well, on to the next trap!

I do have to stop being the perfect prey, though.

Knowledge

2010-05-21T11:56:00.002+02:00

Truth is that knowing things beforehand does not ease any pain.
If anything it makes you agonize until what you fear actually happens.
If you ask me, not knowing will make one utterly happier.
What good is it to know and suffer?
Let me be ignorant and actually believe there is hope...

Wait, with all I know I actually believe in hope!
Maybe I am ignorant after all, and I hadn't realized.

And suddenly I can smile :)

Ignorance is truly a bliss!

Stop

2010-05-21T11:23:00.002+02:00

How does one stop caring?
How does one shed feelings?
How does one outlive eternity?
How does one keep from asking why? And why not? Or why me? And then, why again?
How does one go from loving to indifferent?
How does one just make it through the day?

So many years, and still haven't mastered the art.
Perhaps not crying is mastery enough?!

Butterfly

2010-05-18T15:23:00.002+02:00

You are worth the world
But I can't touch you or you will die
And however much you think landing on me will bring happiness,
It is but an ephemeral one.
And so I have to let you fly
I could not stand to watch you wither away
My heart would break in far more pieces
I would be lonelier then
Than I am with you free!
Every wing flap of yours brings a smile to my face
I know you will always land on a flower next to me
That, and not my hand is the measure of our true happiness.

One life we'll both be butterflies.
We'll both land on the same flower.

Just today

2010-05-18T10:40:00.002+02:00

Resist the obvious
Move forward, not backwards
The known seems comfortable,
But remember, there is a reason why it is in the past.

Honestly

2010-05-17T13:45:00.002+02:00

I am fighting urges today.
One of it is to call you and say that I miss you.
I am back into that awkward position where I'm not sure how to behave,
Nor what to believe and trust.
And as the power drug is wearing out,
My confident strut out the door is halfway faltered
By my hopes that you will pull me back.

E como diz a Sara:
De repente sei que é isto que não quero
Olhar para ti e saber que ainda te espero

Damn this weak heart.

Still peace, but soiled by predictable, annoying, disturbing feelings.

I'm a survivor!

2010-05-17T10:52:00.000+02:00

Being Bad at Relationships Is Good for Survival
LiveScience.com

JR Minkel
LiveScience Contributor

Feeling happy and secure in our relationships is a goal many people strive for, but in times of need the emotionally insecure partners may be doing us a favor by being more alert to possible danger.

Evolution may have shaped us to consist of groups of emotionally secure and insecure individuals, researchers write in the March issue of the journal Perspectives on Psychological Science.

When faced with threats to close personal relationships, people react in different ways according to their sense of whether the world is a secure place. The same reaction styles also cause people to be more or less attuned to dangers of all kinds.

Evolution would have favored a mix of these so-called attachment styles if mixed groups were more likely to survive than groups of only secure or only insecure individuals.

"Secure people have disadvantages," experimental psychologist Tsachi Ein-Dor of the New School of Psychology in Herzliya, Israel, told LiveScience. "They react slowly and then act slowly because they need to first get organized."

This notion would explain why almost half of all people in the world have insecure attachment styles, he said, despite the fact that people prefer secure types as romantic partners.

How we view the world

People who do well in relationships have what's called a secure attachment style. They tend to view the world as a safe place, and their optimism allows them to focus on tasks without being bogged down with negative thoughts. They seek out groups and work well in them.

In contrast are those who exhibit insecure attachment styles. Some people are anxious types, always clinging to their significant other, and others are aloof, or avoidant, preferring to deal with problems on their own instead of relying on their partners.

Attachment behavior is a survival adaptation, said Ein-Dor. Because infants can't survive on their own, they have to attach themselves to their parents. If an infant cries and is soothed by its parent, it learns that it can trust other people for love and support.

Those whose parents don't have time or energy to respond may learn they have to fend for themselves.

Such traits can take on different meanings in a group setting. When in immediate danger, people shouldn't necessarily take comfort in the sense of peace and safety a group can provide.

Benefits of being insecure

To test their idea that mixed groups would benefit survival, Ein-Dor and his colleagues put students in groups of threes alone in a room with a concealed smoke machine, which was switched on to simulate a fire. Groups were quicker to notice the smoke and to react to it if they contained individuals who scored high for insecure attachment.

Groups that had a member who rated high for the anxious attachment style tended to notice the smoke faster than other groups, and those that had a member rating high on attachment avoidance tended to react first, such as by leaving the room.

"This is the first [paper] I've read that has started to sway me toward the idea that insecure attachment styles are adaptations," said Paul Eastwick, a psychologist at Texas A&M University, who was not involved in the current study. "I have always favored more of a 'side effect' explanation."

At last

2010-05-05T06:15:00.002+02:00

Peace at last. Even through doubt and insecurity, peace prevails.
Somehow the obscurity of the unknown is not enough to destroy this amazing feeling. I like it. I hope it lasts. If not, I would have enjoyed it tremendously anyway.

Fear

2010-04-13T13:56:00.000+02:00

I am afraid... I am afraid, but I am bedazzled, addicted, hooked. I feel peace and wrath, all at the same time. I feel loved and neglected. I feel you caring, yet tired. And I have no idea what to do. A child trapped in a woman's body.

Things

2010-04-04T19:52:00.001+02:00

The right thing is among the hardest things to do.
The right thing is always against will, against pleasure.
Whenever you feel like doing the right thing, even if it is by you
Remember you will always think why did you have to be so self righteous.
Can you handle the boredom?
More than the pain that makes you think about doing the right thing in the first place?

There is no possible peace of mind.
Do it and you'll suffer.
Don't and...

Will you by any chance stop being yourself if you lose yourself?
Will it only be considered temporary insanity?
Do you really need all that self respect?
Is ignoring what kills you inside considered suicide?

These are just some of the things that pop up in my head today... right after my peace of mind started to fade.

Needless to say, I did the right thing by me yesterday.
Needless to say, I do not regret it one bit.
Needless to say, I am in withdrawal.

Fuck! I am so tired of this.

Wishes

2010-03-30T15:37:00.002+02:00

I wish I could be content with small things,
I wish I could ignore irrelevant details,
I wish I could block this damned instinct,
I wish I could be illuded more easily,

Oh, how I wish I could just once and for all to be somehow satisfied.

As it appeares

2010-03-25T11:19:00.001+02:00

apparently there is this feeling that makes one think about a certain someone often enough that it can be mistaken for the breath we take to keep us alive
apparently there is this longing that makes you both sad and happy, restless and peaceful, excited and calm
apparently there are thoughts that race through ones head that can never be explained in just a few simple words
sometimes a world of appearances can be good

Reminder

2010-03-25T08:26:00.002+02:00

Today I was reminded that I should free myself from dependency
Last time I was reminded of that I was nowhere ready
This time I am freer than last time, because I feel more detached, more at peace, less afraid
But will this be lasting or just the long walk?

Reality check

2010-03-24T10:10:00.002+02:00

When reality hits you over the head you feel stupid, a perfect idiot
How can insanity take you so hard?
At least there are no permanent damage to carry throughout eternity

What was I thinking?
Clearly I wasn't

I have been told

2010-03-23T14:06:00.003+02:00

I have been told you're bad news
I have been told you're not to be trusted
I have been told you're selfish
I have been told that in the end you'll make me miserable
I have been told to brace for heartache

I have read that all that fall into this trap feel as I feel
I have read it is wrong, wrong, wrong, no matter what I tell myself
I have read that I should wake up

I feel more and more that I want out
For the first time only because I am not happy as I think I should be
For the first time because I'm thinking of me before you

I have been told eventually I would grow up...
Is eventually coming up?

And

2010-03-19T17:44:00.000+02:00

And I cry and laugh, and I cry and I smile, and I still don't know why!

Stupidity is numbing...

What to do?!

2010-03-16T11:08:00.001+02:00

No games, no rules, just us.

I've been told, and today I believe

2010-03-12T12:21:00.000+02:00

"O valor das coisas não está no tempo que elas duram, mas na intensidade com que acontecem. Por isso existem momentos inesquecíveis, coisas inexplicáveis e pessoas incomparáveis."

Fernando Pessoa

Thanks Y.

Free?

2010-03-12T08:29:00.000+02:00

When you want bondage, who can set you free?

Les racines sont importants

2010-03-11T11:58:00.000+02:00

Alliancestars - Cette nuit

Yeah, I know!

2010-03-11T09:22:00.001+02:00

Stupid in love - Rihana

Não são maneiras!

2010-03-10T09:38:00.000+02:00

Foda-se!

Merda!

Porra!

Sentir alguém assim não faz bem a ninguém.

New love (what else)?

2010-03-08T13:07:00.000+02:00

Jazmine Sullivan - Lions, Tiger and Bears

Keep guessing

2010-03-04T11:14:00.002+02:00

If it is based on a lie, how can it be real?

Second guessing is so annoying!

What am I now?

2010-03-03T16:35:00.001+02:00

Baby

Honey

Love?!

Is there anything beyond? What do you do when you cannot get promoted any further?

Mysteriet deg

2010-02-22T14:57:00.001+02:00

Bjorn Eidsvag

du prate i vei om verdensrommets enorme dimensjoner
munnen løpe løpsk og auene e i brann
du tar meg med inn i nåken voldsomme, vidløftige visjoner
om uendelighet og svarte hål og Mars sitt svunne vann

men jag tänker på dom underbara ögona dina
på dina vackra händers perfekta fasong
och vad dom gör med mig när dom möter mina
som en fjäril blir fri från sin tråkiga kokong

eg tenke på mysteriet deg
og under øve alle under: at du elske meg

din iver är stor när du går på om Gud och religioner
du stoppar inte ens när du tar en klunk med vin
jag blir yr när du tar med mig inn i dina reflektioner
det glädjer dig att se mig uti tafattheten min

men eg tenke på dei nydelige formene dine
på brystene som duve når du e engasjert
på dei vakre hendene som søke mine
kor tent eg blir når du e deilig alterert

eg tenke på mysteriet deg
og under øve alle under: at du elske meg

eg e fortapt i deg men likavel heilt frelst
du kan få ka du vil av meg - når som helst
eg klar' ikkje å styra meg
eg begjære deg

eg tenke på mysteriet deg
og under øve alle under: at du elske meg

Stupid

2010-02-22T12:54:00.000+02:00

The conclusion is that I have learned absolutely nothing!

What a waste of energy.

Disease

2010-02-09T13:53:00.003+02:00

Can't eat
Can't drink
Can't sleep
Can't breathe
Can't think

Feel nauseous

I can only be sick!

Prey of one's own medicine

2010-02-09T12:14:00.002+02:00

Temptation is really hard to fight.

But how does one know if one is not being overly Judeo-Christian?!

Have you ever?

2010-02-03T22:23:00.001+02:00

From the performance of another amazing woman.

Glitter In The Air - Pink

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes And trusted, just trusted
Have you ever Thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don’t care

It’s only half past the point of No return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning
The breathe before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You’re whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone
Have you Ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It’s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breathe before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breathe and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?

Love is love, but some say it best

2010-02-03T21:25:00.001+02:00

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage... Lao Tzu

Thanks C.

Methamphetamine for the dependency

2010-02-03T19:02:00.000+02:00

Michael Buble` - Feeling Good - More bloopers are a click away

Feeling good - Michael Bublé

Just...

2010-02-03T18:53:00.001+02:00

Everything - Michael Bublé

Right...

2010-02-01T15:13:00.000+02:00

If it is so right, why does it hurt so much?

Nothing special

2010-01-31T21:34:00.002+02:00

It is not being special that hurts me the most.
It is being equated to just any other.
I have not grown accustomed to being this mundane.
I have not grown accustomed at all!

Damn you!

How can someone so low have the ability to make me feel so small?

Sejamos honestos

2010-01-31T20:19:00.002+02:00

A hipocrisia grassa especialmente os ditos imaculados, os que exigem transparência e se crêm acima de suspeita.

Grassa e desgraça... porque não são as morais e os valores que tão bem debitam que os rege. É o ciúme e a inveja. A raiva, o orgulho ferido.

Uma coisa é a outra, outra mais é mais uma, não é?! Ela tu ignoras e estás disposta a esquecer. Esta outra já é demais, que pequena te faz sentir...

Mas crês ainda em quê, em cavalos alados, príncipes encantados? Se vês a ponta da cauda, o tridente não está longe... não te iludas NUNCA!

E não arranjes desculpas esfarrapadas. Fica-te mal!

Para todos que se sintam

2010-01-29T12:40:00.000+02:00

Meu amor - Lokua Kanza

Who am I kidding?

2010-01-28T21:44:00.001+02:00

You are as you are. And no sugar ig going to take the sour after taste out of my mouth.

You're the weakest link.

Goodbye!

If again!

2010-01-26T16:28:00.000+02:00

If you want me and deserve me, you will understand, and you will do what needs to be done.

See you on the other side.

Best definition so far...

2010-01-26T16:27:00.001+02:00

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own ...

Stolen from C's status.

Compadre!

2010-01-26T11:54:00.003+02:00

Como fazer-te acreditar que estou a tentar? Estou a tentar ser forte, estou a tentar fugir. Mas fujo e não saio do mesmo lugar. O meu cérebro todo sabido diz-me o que não é surpresa, o que é lógico e o que é evidente. O meu coração tolo encontra mil desculpas e nuances.

Tento acreditar verdadeiramente que fui forte e já disse não. Mas esse não saiu fraco e inaudível. E o monstro das sete cabeças, disfarçado de cavaleiro herói e valente aponta e bem que não ouviu e não me crê.

Não crê que verdadeiramente não quero. Não crê que verdadeiramente não cederei.

E pergunto-me eu também... esta pedra é tão dura assim para esta jorrada de água tão forte?

Charmed, I'm sure

2010-01-22T11:06:00.002+02:00

Once the charm is broken, reality comes flowing like a mad river after the snow has melted. Suddenly the fog disappears and all we can see is humid, wrinkled ugly little nature before spring finally sprawls life back into the woods.
That first moment after the charm is broken is the ugliest moment one can witness. If you do not sleep through it, you'd think life is the worst thing you can come across.
Fortunately it only lasts that one second.
And suddenly you don't care about the melting icicles that seemed eternal and beautiful for a while... Let them melt away and die, let them vanish as the transient beings that they are! Flowers and warmth is coming our way.

Whore

2010-01-22T11:02:00.002+02:00

Aren't we little sluts that sell ourselves to the smallest offer?!
Some of us aren't... our stake is higher, the amounts offered more generous.
And our mere presence is highly valued... the key word being value.

And we are paid, highly paid, but still paid!

Life really is a bitch before we die.

Fuck it! Show me the money!

A witches spell

2010-01-21T17:01:00.001+02:00

No longer a man
Slowly becoming the boy you always were
It is the danger of taking potions you can't handle

Navigating that river in Egypt

2010-01-21T09:16:00.002+02:00

If what you did is unforgivable,
Then why can't I just picture you for what you are?
A selfish, despicable human being...

Why can't I hate you?
Why can't I cut you loose?

There hasn't been enough time...
There hasn't been enough time!

Has there?

If I don't manage to tell it to your face

2010-01-21T09:05:00.004+02:00

Because I forget,
Because I chicken out,
Or because I melt under your voice...

It doesn't matter that you came clean when you did,
It matters that you did what you did.
And it matters nothing that you apologize,
What is done is done and the trust is gone.

You can try and make it up.
You can try and clean your face.
You can try and amend.

But all you can do is try.

And in the end, if this is not what you came here for,
If this is not what you bet on,
If this is more than you bargained for,
At the end of the day you will be gone.
I will be left cleaning the floor and closing the door.

Again...

Next customer please!

yeah I'm mad, and I am not hiding it

2010-01-20T12:50:00.001+02:00

Kris Allen - Live like we're dying

Really?!

2010-01-19T21:24:00.000+02:00

And there it is: over before it has even started. Are they just bread specially for me?

Para além do vício

2010-01-19T16:27:00.002+02:00

Estou já naquele momento em que tudo me sabe a pouco,
Em que as horas de conversa sabem a minutos,
Em que para sempre é um segundo,
Em que ouvir a tua voz me angustia,
Porque passado aquele eterno segundo terei que me resignar
que não me chega, mas lá terá que ser
e amanhã terá que ser mais um dia.

Ainda se o sol não se pusesse,
Todos os minutos do dia não me chegariam.
E nem posso dizer que mel demais enjoa,
Porque ainda não sei quanto chega para me enjoar.

E o mais engraçado... é que sei que é uma fase
E sei que não consigo evitá-la
Ainda que pretenda controle e compostura.

Senhora de mim, sou a mesma adolescente enamorada de sempre!

The simple life

2010-01-07T11:15:00.004+02:00

Life would be simpler if I could just tell you that I can't get you of my mind;
It would be easier if I could just let you know that you are the first thing I think of when I wake up, and the last when I fall asleep;
Life would be simpler if I just didn't care where we are going, and didn't care how hurt I might be if I just let go;
Life would be a blast if I could get in that plane with you...
Instead I am left here thinking of how simple life could be and pretending I am not playing the game.

Indeed!

Bipolar

2009-12-23T12:22:00.002+02:00

Serenity is bad for the imagination...
The roller-coaster of emotions is much better:
Sad, ecstatic, depressed, miserable, in pain or vain
It doesn't matter...
Magic always happens,
The brain opens up, or shuts down
The light shines, or darkness
There is will or lack thereof
But something always happens!

O estado natural das coisas

2009-12-23T12:10:00.002+02:00

Mafalda despenteada (Quino)

Porque tudo o que é bom na vida despenteia (desde fazer amor a beijar com ardor), junto-me às mulheres que decidiram viver a vida despenteadas.

Happy again

2009-12-22T10:23:00.002+02:00

Do you notice?

No, no... I wasn't unhappy before. I was at peace... peace can be boring.

It is as it is

2009-12-22T10:22:00.002+02:00

It hurts when it hurts,
While it doesn't
It's goooood!

Back to listening all that is out there

2009-10-13T01:13:00.000+02:00

Turn and turn again - All thieves

Past, present and future

2009-10-07T17:08:00.003+02:00

My present past is killing my future... or so I think.

The idea I have of me and how far I've come does not match the idea of others on me. And I am not sure if it is unfair, or if it is just the past catching up with me.

I feel lost and I have no idea where and if to run.

I don't even know if it is fair with myself to question the self so much.

I am also not sure if the image is fair, or if it's just a clear result of not wanting to take crap, not pampering anymore and not accepting unjust expectations or evaluations.

I don't want to hate myself or who I've been... It gets unpleasant after 30 something years of the same thing.

Oh, I wish I were an island. I hate people!

In a blues mood, howlin at the moon

2009-10-06T10:30:00.000+02:00

Smokestack lighting - Howlin' Wolf

Lost

2009-08-16T20:35:00.001+02:00

Lost to love - Johnatan Butler

In need of something, not yet desperately... Do not know if I'll get or want to get there... But I am getting it out there. It is time.

De facto...

2009-08-07T22:10:00.000+02:00

'Nunca se justifique. Os amigos não precisam e os inimigos não acreditam.'

(agradecendo ao primoso)

Karma

2009-08-03T21:31:00.002+02:00

No matter how much you try to convince yourself you did nothing wrong, it will come to get you. And there is no way you can convince her she is not right!

Well... It must be in the name.

Às vezes é preciso crer

2009-05-20T11:48:00.001+02:00

A Deus eu peço - Alexandre Pires, Anselmo Ralph, Yola Araújo

Não me quero explicar

2009-05-19T18:56:00.001+02:00

Não me quero explicar, nem me quero desculpar. Levei muito tempo a tomar a decisão de não te ver quando estive em Lisboa. Não a tomei de ânimo leve, mas tomei em consciência. Não me vou tentar explicar, porque penso que nunca entenderias, e tenho pena. Mas o facto de não entenderes é que faz com que nestas coisas nunca nos entendamos.

Mas não te quero chateado, nem magoado comigo. Não vale a pena. Não vale a pena porque te vai fazer ficar mais meio ano sem me falares, o que me vai fazer ficar irritada contigo e ficar eu sem te falar. E antes que percebas já passou mais meio ano. E assim se passam 10 anos a brincar. E eu não quero isso.

Eu gostaria sinceramente de te ver de novo. Gostaria de conversar normalmente contigo de novo. E isso nunca vai acontecer se amuares.

Digo-te e repito, não te quis ver em Lisboa porque não gosto de ti, muito pelo contrário. Não te quis ver porque gosto demais de ti. Não te quis ver porque estava irritada contigo. Não te quis ver porque se calhar tinha muita coisa a fazer e o pouco tempo que te poderia ver não me seria suficiente.

Mas como te disse, não me quero explicar. Não me quero explicar, nem quero que me entendas, nem que me perdoes. Mas não te quero magoado comigo.

Sheit

2009-05-04T14:08:00.003+02:00

Temptation is so hard to fight. The more you know you shouldn't go there, the more you want to. Leave it to us girls to know what not to, and do it any way. :P

How can the male God like us?

My best friend

2009-04-28T14:59:00.002+02:00

Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat

Sabedoria

2009-04-26T12:20:00.002+02:00

Coisas que eu sei - Danni Carlos